Who am I?

Hello Loves!

I don’t really know what to say right now, I feel like this blog post is just going to be my thoughts farted out into a confusing stinky mess. Sorry… I’m gross.

Where have I been? Over this past TIFF season I seemed to get a lot of people asking me what’s happened to this blog, why am I not writing anymore. To be honest, I’m actually not all that sure. I mean there are some contributing factors…

  1. Lack of inspiration
  2. Bored with what I was producing
  3. Feel more creative on Instagram
  4. Making more money on Instagram

But are these valid enough for me to give up what was once salvation for me?! Heck no! The reason why I started this blog was because I was sad and lonely, and now I’ve stopped I again feel sad and lonely. Why did I stop? This summer I took the time to think, I was lost for a second, wrapped up in the whole greedy ‘all about money’ world that I forgot who I am. I had to find myself…

I am Filipa Jade Jackson, 27 year old Leeds lass, living in a small rather quirky town outside of Toronto. I am a daughter to an interracial couple, sister to 4 creative and confusing boys, wife to my high school sweetheart, mother to a fluffy son. I have always been self employed, although I once did work at Nandos for 2 hours (I wasn’t paid). I am stubborn, moody, random, weird, a little funny and have permanent resting bitch face. I’m allergic to penicillin, caffeine, and guinea pigs. I love Netflix, Starbucks, IG fashion pages, prosecco with friends, and cheese… all the cheese. I can’t stand Suits (the show), fake people, ‘industry’ and sriracha. I suffer from social anxiety which means I will always have a friend and drink in hand, I have a constant fear of being judged. I never say the right thing, and my blog posts are boring as fuck (I’m also a cusser), but this is me… I am Filipa.

I plan to continue this blog, however this time I refuse to lose who I am. I will still work with companies I love and believe in, but my posts won’t be forced and sterile. Playing with Apparel is here to stay.



SHOP MY LOOK (Click the item)

Top: H&M Skirt: Pretty Little Thing Shoes: Adidas Bag: Chanel (similar)

xoxo Fil

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P.S. Follow along with me everyday via SnapChat. My username is: Filzer




  1. September 18, 2017 / 11:58 am

    Love your honesty, Filipa! We all go through the times…It’s hard sometimes but listen: You’re good at what you do! So lift ya head up! Sending hugs!
    Happy Monday, babe!
    xoxo, Vanessa

  2. September 18, 2017 / 4:57 pm

    I think most bloggers can relate to feeling this way, I know I can! It’s a hard, superficial, competitive industry and sometimes, you can try so hard to stand out that guise lose your identity, as well as the purpose for which you’ve started. Thanks for being so open with us, girl, and I look forward to what you share here; I know it will be awesome!



  3. September 20, 2017 / 10:52 am

    LOL you’re too cute. And I know what you mean, darling. I’ve been feeling so uninspired lately! Hope you catch some inspiration soon pretty lady!




  4. Siffat Haider
    September 20, 2017 / 6:27 pm

    I think all bloggers have fallen off the wagon at one point or another. Glad you’re back!

  5. September 20, 2017 / 10:51 pm

    What a lovely post! I’ve also had days where I feel uninspired and don’t blog for weeks / months! But I think it definitely helps taking a break!

    Welcome back! x


  6. Julia R
    September 27, 2017 / 8:44 am

    So glad you’re back and I love this cute photo!
    I totally get where you’re coming from with this post, as I have been feeling the same way! I needed to take a break too, and seriously wondered about whether to carry on with blogging!
    Then, I remembered that I started blogging for fun, and that it just wasn’t fun any more, which is why I’ve not been inspired! So, I agree with you that it’s time to rethink and for me, I need to make it fun again!
    Julia x

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