Mean Girls

Hello Loves!

I’ve never really fit in, I was too ‘geeky’ to hangout with the cool kids and too ‘dumb’ to hangout with the smart kids. I was a misfit…and I still am.

Over the past couple of weeks I have found myself at various events, feeling like I don’t fit in or belong. I am still that dumb geeky kid. It’s not that I am socially awkward, who am I kidding… yes I am, but I do have the capability to hold an adult conversation… I just never get the chance.

I feel like people automatically judge me by my cover, I blame my resting bitch face for this. But I’m also not given the opportunity for people to get to know me… or even say hi!! As much as I love blogging and the people it has actually allowed me to meet, I do sometimes find (maybe this is a Toronto thing) people are incredibly cliquey. There is a definite ‘mean girls’ vibe. Being the misfit that I am, unless I know someone at an event that I can cling to for dear life, I am pretty much left alone to my own devices. Sipping my wine and snapchatting like I am having the time of my life.

It’s not that I am ungrateful for the opportunities blogging has given me, because Lord knows I am… it just gets to me sometimes. I’m not going to change who I am just to make superficial friendships (they probably still won’t like me)… but does the cycle of ‘mean girls’ ever end? I hope so!


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Pants: BDG Sweater: Kenzo Jacket: Zara (similar) Bag: Chanel (similar) Shoes: Topshop (similar)

xoxo Fil


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  1. October 20, 2016 / 5:31 am

    Love the content of the post… I don’t know if you’ve seen Gossip girl,but the end of the show explain it that, whenever one chapter of that “mean girls” end, here comes the other one…
    So i’m afraid that the answer is no :(.
    Great outfit though

  2. October 20, 2016 / 7:11 am

    Cute look! I loveeeee that jacket! I feel the same way as you sometimes. I have a bad resting bitch face as well, but I always try and make an effort to put on a smile (fake or not) whenever I’m at events. It helps make you more approachable!


    • filipajackson
      October 23, 2016 / 8:11 pm

      Yes that’s exactly what I do too, guess you can’t make everyone like you. I just hate the fakeness

      Filipa xxx | Instagram

  3. October 20, 2016 / 8:54 am

    Oh, I completely understand what you’re saying. I’m exactly the same.
    I love your outfit. The shirt is amazing!


  4. Amy Arnold
    October 20, 2016 / 9:05 am

    You are so not a misfit in my eyes!! I totally know what you mean though. I have always been a nerdy introvert. I mean hello, I majored in math. Somehow it’s easier to hide behind my computer screen and blog. I get so nervous when it requires actual social interaction, ha! I totally felt this way when I went to fashion week in NY, but I ended up meeting some super nice women in person. Okay, back to your look. Obsessed! Love the tee and leather.

    Amy Ann
    Straight A Style

    • filipajackson
      October 23, 2016 / 8:15 pm

      Thank you for writing this Amy, makes me feel better that I’m not alone… although it still doesn’t mean its ok.

      Filipa xxx | Instagram

  5. October 20, 2016 / 10:30 am

    I really hate these people who judge others by ‘the cover’! You can’t really know how this person is until you actually speak with them! You look gorgeous! x

    Ela BellaWorld

  6. October 20, 2016 / 1:15 pm

    Babe you are the nicest person I’ve ever met. Without you I am lost and probably have run back to the Philippines (or swim). Tho everything you said is exactly how I feel here everyday. And no you don’t have a resting bitch face. You have a very gorgeous face! I think it’s just the blogging world is. People are friendly online but not as much when you meet them.

  7. October 20, 2016 / 2:23 pm

    I totally understand you. It happens sometimes, but don’t think about it too much: just focus on the positive sides blogging has (and they are sooo many!). And, just so you know, I would totally talk to you if we were at the same event! 😀


    Lucrezia ♥ (

  8. October 20, 2016 / 2:45 pm

    I can 100% relate to this, so this, I don’t think is a Toronto thing, more like a combination of a big city and blogger thing. Being from NYC and having attended numerous events, I’ve felt exactly how you’ve felt so many times, if not the majority of those times. I’ve had other bloggers (who I don’t know and never spoke to nor seen before) talk about me in groups in corners, give me dirty looks, bump into me to purposefully have my drink spill on me, you name it, I’ve experienced it. My advice is to continue to hold your head up, try and ask for a plus one and invite Sameer as much as possible (I always try to have Eddie come with me) and try to chat with the coordinators and brands and call it a wrap. Know this, if we are ever at the same event, which for sure will eventually happen, you will ALWAYS have me to hang with! You look gorgeous, btw, I love that Kenzo sweater paired with the moto jacket! Have the best day, beautiful!



    • filipajackson
      October 23, 2016 / 8:25 pm

      Oh my goodness Jalisa that is awful… why are people so mean?! I always bring Sameer with me haha… if there is no plus 1 I don’t go

      Filipa xxx | Instagram

  9. October 21, 2016 / 1:16 am

    I love this Kenzo sweater and how you styled this entire look. And sadly to say, I think girls will always be girls. Bloggers all have their cliques and it’s sad that it feels like high school all over again. But you are successful, do NOT have a RBF yet a gorgeous smile, and you are doing it right so try not to let it get to you. Just keep doing what you are doing and kill them with kindness. =) xoxo, Christine

  10. October 21, 2016 / 5:28 am

    I can totally relate to how you feel. I can be quite shy at first so I feel lost at blogging events. Sometimes I realise that bloggers are way nicer online than in real life.

  11. October 21, 2016 / 10:46 am

    Well hello there, fellow Canadian blogger. Oh, how I hear your pain! I am the exact same person – whenever I am at a blogging event I tend to keep to myself. If you ever see another awkward girl in a corner getting drunk by herself and boomeranging everything, please come say hi! Your outfit rocks btw!!

  12. October 21, 2016 / 7:10 pm

    You look great and no worries now you fit in with the fashion crowd looking good

  13. October 22, 2016 / 8:28 am

    Super cool outfit! There are some social situations in my life where I don’t feel fully at ease either. I guess it’s normal…


  14. Siffat Haider
    October 22, 2016 / 2:18 pm

    It’s such a shame that you experienced this. I’ve always found the Toronto blogging community really supportive, but it’s never nice when a select few are mean to others. Love this look on you!

  15. October 23, 2016 / 12:53 pm

    Ah I hope so too Filipa! I can really relate to how you feel on this topic and it needs a big discussion! But if I ever get to see you on an event, be sure I will be clicking with you ha!
    Thanks for sharing babe and have an amazing week!
    PS: You are gorgeous inside and out, stay as you are!!

  16. Jeanelly
    October 23, 2016 / 4:05 pm

    Wow, we really have a lot in common. I attend events, and usually I’m working as media so I observe a lot. It’s very cliquey, yes even in Texas, lol. But I try to smile at everyone, even at people who are giving me the “evil eye” for whatever reason. And once I do smile, they always warm up to me, because I’m sincere when I do it. I have RBF, but I don’t mean to be so when I smile they see that was just in the zone, not being bitchy.
    Anyway, that’s ok, hun! Being a misfit is fine, but I would bring a friend if I’m not working so I won’t feel out of place.

    • filipajackson
      October 23, 2016 / 8:47 pm

      Ugh it’s the worst, I try to be nice to everyone I meet but I am just so sick of the fakeness people throw my way. I will remain myself, I hope you do too

      Filipa xxx | Instagram

  17. October 26, 2016 / 8:49 am

    I love reading all of your posts, and for this post I don’t think that you look horrid! When I look at your posts, you look so sweet and nice! Don’t worry about people!
    We don’t judge a book by his cover
    Take care Filipa <3

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