I guess the cat is out of the bag, I’m knocked up! Baby Walji is due Jan 2020. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would ever have the privilege of saying these 3 words. We are pregnant!
Over the past nearly 3 years, Sameer and I have been put through the ringer of a fertility journey. It has been the hardest thing, I think, either of us have ever been through. It’s been years of sadness, heartbreak, anxiety and depression. I so badly wanted to talk to you about it, you probably saw my sadness and anxiety on social media, but I never really opened up. Even to my friends, when confronted about the big baby question, I would answer with, we don’t know if we want kids. Why did I do this? I did it to protect myself, I didn’t want the pity. Sad I know. I wish I was confident to have spoken about it before but I was never ready. I had to get through this on my own.
Even though these years have been torture, I am a strong believer (even now) that everything happens for a reason. Why did we go through this, I think to be able to communicate about it. Sameer and I went through every possible avenue of the fertility world. We didn’t get to jump and pass go, we leapt over every hurdle. We did the old fashioned way, medicated timed intercourse, countless IUI’s and finally IVF with ICSI.
So why am I telling you all of this? Why am I not just announcing the good news and producing a hundred pregnancy posts? Well, because I know the struggle, I know the pain, I know the feeling of being so completely and utterly alone. I want to hold your hand, I want to be your source of education, and guidance. I want to be your friend.
I am excited to say that with the help of Sameer, we will be delving into the past three years, rehashing everything we went through to inform you of all aspects of the fertility world. The good, the bad, and the ugly. We will be breaking it down into segments, starting off with the old fashioned way, ending with IVF, and chatting about everything in between. I am also extremely proud that Sameer will be opening up his heart to talk to you too. Through this we have found that there isn’t a voice for men in this world. They are just meant to be wall flowers, but without Sameer being fully invested we wouldn’t be here today.
Wow, that was an emotional whirlwind. So stay tuned, I hope you follow along with the next series. Even if this isn’t up your alley or interest, I kind of hope you follow along to educate yourself on this world and what people are going through. If you are going through anything and want to talk, please don’t hesitate to contact me, I am here for you. We got this!
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