I’ve never really fit in, I was too ‘geeky’ to hangout with the cool kids and too ‘dumb’ to hangout with the smart kids. I was a misfit…and I still am.
Over the past couple of weeks I have found myself at various events, feeling like I don’t fit in or belong. I am still that dumb geeky kid. It’s not that I am socially awkward, who am I kidding… yes I am, but I do have the capability to hold an adult conversation… I just never get the chance.
I feel like people automatically judge me by my cover, I blame my resting bitch face for this. But I’m also not given the opportunity for people to get to know me… or even say hi!! As much as I love blogging and the people it has actually allowed me to meet, I do sometimes find (maybe this is a Toronto thing) people are incredibly cliquey. There is a definite ‘mean girls’ vibe. Being the misfit that I am, unless I know someone at an event that I can cling to for dear life, I am pretty much left alone to my own devices. Sipping my wine and snapchatting like I am having the time of my life.
It’s not that I am ungrateful for the opportunities blogging has given me, because Lord knows I am… it just gets to me sometimes. I’m not going to change who I am just to make superficial friendships (they probably still won’t like me)… but does the cycle of ‘mean girls’ ever end? I hope so!
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