The other day I posted a could be controversial image on Instagram, as let’s say, a test for this posting. I wanted to make that enough of us feel the same way, that I wasn’t alone. I was blown away by the overwhelming amount of support and similarities. So today’s posting is about body image.
My entire life I have been the skinny one. Growing up I don’t think I have gone one day without being told, ‘your so skinny’. Whether these people meant it in a nice way or not, it always hits my heart like a dagger. It isn’t a compliment to me to be branded as skinny. I have enough bad memories of being called anorexic, bulimic, or ewww look at her chest bones… that pointing out that yes I am on the skinnier side is not a compliment…. I ALREADY KNOW! I LOOK IN THE MIRROR EVERY FRIGGING DAY!
I am from a long line of skinnies, this is my genetically gifted body. Will I ever accept and be happy with it? I hope so… but probably not, as no one lets me forget. The lust to gain weight controls my mind too much. Every time I have gained weight not only on the scale (ugh I hate scales), but to the point that I can see it myself, someone always has to rain on my parade by asking if I lost weight. NO ASSHOLE!
It doesn’t help that I am small all over, my breasts are none existent and my ass is shrinking as I speak…. I am also not the tallest. I stand at 5’5″. I am just little…. get over it.
I am apart of an amazing squad of 8 beautiful girls. Not one of us are alike. Our body shapes and lengths are completely different. I think they are all incredibly sexy and beautiful, however they don’t think the same about themselves. We are all on the same destructive path. Nicht Gut! (yes I took German in high school… but this is as far as it goes haha).
It doesn’t matter what we look like… everyone has their own insecurities and shit. No one is perfect. We are all human. Let’s bring each other up.
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P.S. Follow along with me everyday via SnapChat. My username is: Filzer